C`est la vie...

I watched a little bit of the first episode of Material Queen starring Vanness Wu, and I sort of, kinda, maybe got mesmerized by him, and not particularly because of his appearance, but because of his song, Is this all, in the intro (which is wonderfully edited). So as I have the habit of googling eye candies, I read on his Wikipedia page about his latest album which also contains the song in the intro. The name of the album is just wonderful! C'est la V, and I assume that the V stands for Vanness, but the greatness of this album title is the double meaning. The V is pronounced just like the French word vie which means life. It's the life...

This makes me wonder who came up with this title, because it is the whole reason why I bothered to download the album. The songs are actually really good, and his voice literally blew me away. He has such a wonderful voice and I can't stop listening to it. I even want to buy the album, which is something I rarely do. This album is so good that I would especially recommend it to those who don't like Vanness Wu - I didn't and look where this album got me. I am addicted.

Why can`t I follow my own advice?

I finished high school this year and took a year off to earn money for college and to "upgrade" my poor grades. Approximately three weeks and a half ago got myself a job as a telemarketer. And I bet those who read this post are grimacing and thinking, 'what the hell were you thinking?'. Actually I didn't think, I was lured in by my friend and by the money. Let me tell you, I earn lots by sitting on my lovely bum and talk in the phone and try to sell things to complete strangers. So what is the problem? I don’t know if I can really do it. It is a very difficult line of job, there is not much hockuspockus, but it is so difficult for me to call people and get used to talking to strangers. Normally I would advise others to really think and decide if they are comfortable with the job or even like it. If they don't then it isn't worth it.

But why can't I follow my own advice? I am not comfortable with it and I don't even like it. Then shouldn't the answer be obvious? One side of me is saying that I shouldn't give up so easily because it wouldn't look nice on my CV. But then another says that it isn't worth it. Then another voice creeps in and says that the money is worth it - for my future - and I won’t be able to earn that money any other places with the same work hours. The pros are so much less than the cons, and I don't know what it says about my situation or what it says about me. Right now, I'm very unsure about my next move, but I guess I have to stay put for a little while and then see what happens.

New change

Hey! This is Suzie. I just deleted the contents of this blog and starting it all over again. I started it to write about what I bottle up inside, to write about what I find amazing, beautiful and wonderful, to write about what infuriates, saddens and scares me. But it somehow turned to some other direction - make-up, fashion, weightloss, music. I will write about those too, but only if it connects with me or I have personal input that claims that this is me.
So here we go again!

Take care,

Suzie Cee.